Debbie Downer
Well, I am still feeling like crap. Some days I will just be a little off and makes me think the vomiting is over, and then I get tricked and the vicious cycle starts again. I have been feeling really sad and alone. Micky has been great, but I think is lost with my mood. I just feel like shit and that has put me in a shitty mood. We wanted this baby so bad and now I feel like a shitty person. I still want the baby, just don’t want to be sick anymore. I can honestly say that I am not as sick as I was with my first 11 years ago. I have lost a few pounds through this process.
Micky is bored and I know she is not liking the staying at home almost at all the time. I seem to muster the energy to go to work and suffer. By the weekend I can barely get out of bed. I know it is not fair to her, so I tell her to go out without me. She does not go. I feel like she is angry with me, but she says she is not. I have definitely noticed her distancing herself from me… I am sure between the throwing up and me being shitty, who wants to be near me. I miss the kisses and I miss the cuddling… it has disappeared. I just want to cry. I feel no one understands how I really feel right now.
On a good note my lovely daughter knows now and is super excited. We felt it was time, especially with me being so sick and tired. We told her we had news for her and she asked if we were adopting! So cute. She asks me now how I feel and gives me a hug and says poor mommy it will get better. She has heard the horror stories of when I was sick with her…
We see the IVF doctor tomorrow and then off to OB doctor that is supposed to be the best in LA. The wait is supposed to be a few hours just to see him.
Sorry not so uplifting here 
I’m so sorry you’re feeling this way. I don’t know what it’s like to feel sick from being pregnant, or the dynamic that creates in the relationship, but I do know how challenging TTC has been both in terms of my energy level and for us as a couple. Try to remember that although it might feel like it, you are definitely NOT alone. You are surrounded by love and hopefully in a few weeks (or any day now) your body will give you a break and you’ll start to feel better. Sending hugs to you.
sending big (((hugs))). i was miserable during the first half of my pregnancy too and im sure i was no fun to be around. hang in there and take good are of yourself.
The last few weeks have been really really hard for me as well. I had no idea what to expect (and everyone reacts differently) but I’ve had many moments of wondering why it is I wanted to do this in the first place. It is hard to talk about, because we all worked so hard to be here. But the beginning is rough, especially if you feel really really sick all the time. And the emotional/hormonal changes don’t help matters. I just keep trying to crawl out one day at a time.
Hi, and nice to meet you!
Sorry about all the nasty things that happen……. I was exactly like you in the beginning, I could muster up the strength to go to work and crashed the moment I got home then spent weekends sleeping on the couch. I am finally starting to leave the house: we have three social engagements this week, and that’s A LOT for me right now, but I wouldn’t have even been able to attempt it six weeks ago!