Maybe 20 mins after I wrote my post yesterday… I went to the bathroom again and there was a blood clot that was about a quarter size. I text Micky and said I am headed to the doctors. I could not stress myself out by wondering if I just lost the baby. I told Micky to call the office and let them know I decided I was going to come in to do blood.
I was shaking and thought I was going to throw up. I was so upset… thinking that it was all coming to an end. The first and second beta meant nothing. I guess it is not a sure thing getting those numbers. I was on a major downward spiral. Micky called me and was going to meet me at the doctors office even though I was just getting my blood drawn. She talked to me the entire 45 long mins. it took me to get to the doctors. The doctors office offered for me to get my blood drawn at a local lab, but I thought no you need to fix this … I am coming to you. Stupid, I know. The office called us while we were on our way and said the lab closes at 4:30 and we would not get our beta number till the next day… are we sure we still wanted to come there. YES!! I just felt like their lab would be the best and I needed comforting from the nurses. I needed someone to tell me what was really going on. If I was having a miscarriage what would I expect or is this the first signs. I needed hope or I needed the real truth of what the hell was going on.
Once we got to the office everybody was soooooo nice and very positive. That some women bleed and I guess several women on the Crinone were experiencing the same problems, but they were fine and they maintained the pregnancy. As were getting the blood drawn the lab lady came by and probably saw the fear in my face. She said I can run your blood today … you will know today. It will take about 45mins! Then she looked at the nurse and said to not draw a lot… she needed just a little to do the test. Micky and I said “really??!!!???” and then Thanked her a million times over. Almost like she saved this pregnancy … as we all know that is not the answer.
Once we stepped out the Angel nurse that Micky and I LOVE… said lets switch you to the progesterone shot. It seemed to calm things down in the other patients and she continued to tell us how she was not liking the results they are getting from the Crinone. It is causing to many problems. She asked me if I would be ok switching… I said YES… just fix this… save this baby that I have already started to love. I know I should have not had my hopes up… but I did.
We left the office still on edge. At this point I was only spotting and the blood was dark brown. Still had cramping. Angle nurse said that the cramping was ok and I had a lot going on down there. We live about an hour away from the office so I drove home and Micky drove back to work. I was not going to go back to work… I was a hot mess.
I got the call from the office on my way home and our beta was 3700!!!! The nurse said they would expect it to be about 3200 and I was way above. They are really happy with the number and take it easy and to call if I start bleeding heavy with heavy cramps!! I am Jewish… but all I could think in my head at that moment is Hallelujah, Halle-freaking-lujah!!!!!! I called Micky and she was happy with the number, but seemed removed. Situations like this (disappointment) she does not handle well. The rest of the night she seemed detached and emotionally exhausted. I felt really bad. I had cramping for the remaining of the night. I woke up today feeling pretty good. Went through my pregnancy checklist… boobs hurt -check, peeing through the night – check, boobs weigh a ton – check, and an added symptom today… indigestion CHECK!!.
Then Came Baby... 